1884 - 1965 (80 years)
||Alice Maud Ascoli |
||1 Dec 1884
||Does one remember all the things one thinks one does - or are many things repeated, again and again, in the family intercourse and so fixed in the memory as remembered happenings? I do not know! Of course our lives overlap so much that the outward things of my home life have already been told. So this last chapter is more the inner life, the thoughts, the effect the rest of the family had on me and how things, as I see them, affected my character.|
I was by nature a quiet child from the beginning - noticing a good deal and bottling thoughts up in my mind - weighing them one against the other and making judgements all by myself and never saying one word about them to a single person. I must have been quite a normal child from the beginning - I walked and talked at the time expected in an ordinary child. I ran about and played in the fields watching the others rather than participating with them in their games. I always waited to be asked to join in games and so was no leader in sports or in the fun, always a follower. In fact, I was very shy, even in the family. However, I knew within myself that I was intelligent because I learned as quickly as anyone else and was rather pleased with myself in consequence.
Also, I thought all grown ups were perfect. That was why at a very early age I accepted all that was told me and, as my father talked a lot about religion. I absorbed it all. I do not think in early years of my life I questioned one single thing that was told me by an adult. I gathered quite a lot of knowledge that way though.
At six I had measles which left me deaf in one ear at any rate. This was a tragedy to me as I had been a great listener though hardly ever expressing an opinion of my own. However I was beginning to read books and these began to take the place of people. Our library in those days was very limited and I somehow got the idea that reading stories was wrong. Even if we were not taught this it must have been the general idea of the time in religious families such as ours.
There was a library provided by nearly all the Sunday Schools of that day and they were story books of a kind but all about good children and good people - so I came to despise those that did not go to church or Sunday School - they were not good and not fit to associate with. We were not allowed to go into other people's houses or play with children in the street and, as I wanted to be "good," I always came straight home from school and so missed the healthy games of children generally. It increased my shyness too and I did not get that look of health and happiness which is the right of every child living a normal life.
As I grew older I had a tendency to curvature which I think was due to not joining in games and bending too much over books for I was fond of school lessons. I was entirely lacking in imagination. 
||1 Mar 2009 |
||Mordecai Marcus Ascoli, b. 19 May 1848, London, England , d. 23 Oct 1901, London, England (Age 53 years) |
||Jane Elizabeth Palmer, b. 1852, London, England , d. 3 Mar 1929, London, England (Age 77 years) |
||Group Sheet | Family Chart
- [S176] Memoirs of Alice Ascoli 1884 - 1965, Alice Ascoli.